Tod bedeutungslos

Go here!

2008-10-08T16:03:00.003+01:00

http://blog.ebmhead.com - this is the new place to be for all of you who can't get enough of reading the shit I post... Or not... Well, you decide. This blog will be online, but there will be no more postings, so update your browser's start page or bookmarks!

Over-and-out!

/E

Another day in hell

2008-10-07T12:20:00.002+01:00

Hungry, cold and tired...

Sometimes it would be nice just to give the world a big "fuck you"...

It is interesting how things turns out. Never could I imagine that I would be where I am right now ten years ago... I mean, all the little choices made during my trip to where I am now, all of them have helped to create my situation today. Even small decisions like which route to take to work, what to eat, which side of the road to be on... It is amazing when you ponder it. Sometimes it is easy to start to think that there is, and have always been, a path already laid out for us humans... But that is just a product of the mind trying to sort all the random events and information thrown at us daily. It seems like we humans always has to try and make sense of the world around us, and if we can't figure things out we take the easy way out and attribute them to a divine force, hence taking things out of our hands and out of our reach.

I'd rather be at home right now then sitting here in the office, or at least be out of the office some how. Hm...

Soon it will be four months since my beloved girlfriend came to visit me... And she is still here with me. Let's say it is official that she will move in with me! That, my friends, is great news! Because I love her so! I really want to spend all my time with her... imagine that!

Well.... ok

I'll just say, go to hell!

/E

No smoking, please

2008-10-07T09:24:00.003+01:00

So, I have finally got an tattoo which you can see in the picture below. It only took about 10 years to get it :-p But hey, now I got it!

I am still able to keep of the cigarettes, which is a feat... Two weeks without tobacco now... It can be quite tough at times... The addiction is deeply rooted, both in the physical body as in the psychical...

This week is official the week from hell. There is way to much to do and I will not be able to see my darling as much as I'd like. And it's not just the week, the weekend is ruined as well. Going away with my work. All weekend locked up in a conference building... Maybe it'd going to be fun since it is a coder competition...

Let's see...

/E

tattoo

2008-10-03T14:05:00.000+01:00

A new week - new challanges

2008-09-22T13:04:00.002+01:00

another weekend have come to pass.
A lovely weekend it was!

Now it is a new week and I am going to try and break a old habit, an really old habit...
I have been an nicotine addict for nearly 13 years now... Now it is time to break the chains and rid myself from the rather disgusting (and expensive) habit of smoking...

It is going to be tough... hmm.... But I feel that I must do something about it.
Stop smoking, that would be something! Just thinking about it makes me want to go outside and inhale a whole package of ciggarettes... hmm...

I guess the toughest part is to get my mind set to it...

Well, I hope I succeed

/E

Weekend

2008-09-19T14:14:00.003+01:00

I am really looking forward to this weekend!
Me and my sweetheart are going to go away, lock us into a hotel suite and just pamper our selves with good food, snacks, champagne and such!

Yeah, feels nice, a weekend in la-la-land basically :-) Nothing else to do but to care for eachother. I wish it was like that every day...

Me and my sweetheart have been living together for four months now. It's crazy, time really flies... It is wonderful, I really want to spend my life with this wonderful woman! I am in love, deep in love!

Have a nice weekend everybody

/E

All is justified in the name of God, Allah, Jahwe, Jehova or wathever...

2008-09-12T07:34:00.003+01:00

Religion, the root and cause of all ill deeds performed by mankind... More or less...
I think it is wonderfull! If you only hide behind religion you can justify any cause, no matter how twisted it is, wether it comes to genocide on the Balkans, crusades in the middle east, persecution of Jews through out centuries or strapping bombs to children having them blowing them selves up in a market place or bus somwhere...

Just perfect...

It is scary as hell... There are so many religious fanatics out there, but not all are perceived as fanatics. Just look at Palin, the woman who would become vice precident of the USA if the republicans with McCain as presiden wins the elections. Hm... She claims she believes in "Gods grand plan for the world"... Wouldn't that signify mental illness in some degree? Why does everybody stand on the sidelines when people like her are about to rise to power? I mean, if this was a election somewhere in the middle east and a person (let's call him Osama) who is a Muslim fanatic, making the same kind of statements but from Islams point of view, wouldn't CIA have a sniper in the nearest bush to take him out immediatly? I would think so... But hey, now it's about Big Brother USA where the norm is to be a white upper middle class rightwing christian fanatic with fasicst tendencies... Nothing else seem to matter... I mean the remainding 95% of the population in the USA probably can't read anyways so who cares about them...

Ok, I started this rant out to be about religion, but somehow it turned to become a display of my disgust for the ruling of the US... My bad, but hey, they had it coming, it was the news coverage of the political events in the US that sparked me to write this in the first place...

Let's try to go back to the topic of religon then... What to say about it... Beliefe... people who have a strong beliefe in a God, how could they!? Being a person who stands with both feets in the scientific world and demanding evidence to support claims I am baffled. So many millions, not to say billions of people just swallowing whatever crap is fed to them.

Oh gee.... I am really ranting, ain't I?

I respect peoples right to have their own point of view, to live their life as they choose to and for them to find their own happiness. People should be free to express their views without facing any consequences, freedom of speach is one of the most fundamental human rights. I'm just wondering what ever happened to objectivity... It seems like most people don't want to think for them selves... How hard can it be? Come on! Think a little bit, wake up and smell the coffe!

Thousands of years of indoctrination, thousands of years during which religion has become an integral part of communities, countries and it's laws and moral sence. Hmm... One thing that really bothers me... Take Sweden as a good example of sheep herding... Sweden has for some years been secularised, meaning that state and church is separated. Offcourse it has an even longer history where the state dictated which religion you could belong to or not, the Swedish Church being the place to be was Lutheran and you were born into the congregation and the only way to get out was to die, at which point you still were in the grasp of the Swedish Lutheran Church, because you needed a good Christian funeral... well... Even though it's not mandatory to be a part of the Swedish church anymore people don't seem to realize the implication of religion, nooo, they follow "tradition"...

Traditions that dictates that when a baby is born it should be baptised, because that was the way my mother and father did it, and they mothers and fathers before them and... so on... Ok, so let's see, what happens when a child is baptised in the Swedish Church? Oh fuck me, it becomes a part of the congrigation... Didn't see that comming did you? So ok, in a secularised country, where church and state are separate, people are still (to the great extent) having their children brought into the church through baptism. But do they care? Do they realise that the child all the sudden is a "Christian", no, I don't believe so, because most people in Sweden does not view them selves as Christian, but more as "Atheists" or "Agnostics", allthough the majority is still a part of the Swedish Church... I can't get this... Do they go to church? Generally no. Do they pray or otherwise worship? Genereally no. I would say that people that have a need of worship and prayer are not members of the Church of Sweden, but some other church like Mormons, Pentercost or Jehovas wittnesses...

Given this, why does people in Sweden generally and willingly stay members of the church if they are not practising the religon activly? Beats me!

The same stupid think comes along when it is time for weddings. People in Sweden to 98% does this in a church with a priest. Promesing eachother eternal love, until death do them apart, ant to whom does this promise go? Well, offcourse to God! Fucking shit... Does anyone care about what they are doing? Doesen't seem that way... I totally pro the acto of promesing eachother love, faithfullness and all that crap, but I would never do it before God, because it is not my beliefe that God exists, and I would be willing to go out on a limb and say that 99.99% of all couples that gets wed in the Swedish Church does not believe in God either... So why do they get married in church? because of fucking "tradition"...

Am I the only one seeing how stupid this is?

Well needless to say I left the Swedish Church a long time ago... Not a member anymore, allthough my parents did baptise me in to the church I activly made the descision to leave it, simply because it's not my religion or belief and I refuse to support it. This is also something very wrong. When children gets baptised they loose their free choice of religion. In Sweden there is a law proclaiming that there is freedom of religion, anyone can become a member of any religon or belief. These children is activly robbed of this freedom...

Well I can't continue anymore right now, maybe I'll revisit this topic some other rainy day

See you all in hell (oh gosh, I just committed to a Christian point of view...)
/E

All work and no fun, makes E a dull boy

2008-09-05T11:34:00.004+01:00

Well, another week has come to pass...
It has been quite hectic, not only do I have my day job to worry about, but also my moonlighting business. On top of that I need to take my drivers license... And if that wasn't enough, we have meetings at work some evenings as well, and now I am a part of the executive group at my company, so that takes some time and energy as well... I only hope that I can slow done this wheel before it spins out of control... The last two weeks have really taken it's toll on my psyche...

Fortunately I have this wonderful girlfriend who really does understand that sometimes life is hectic and we can not always have as much time together as we would want. Luckily it is Friday to day, so we will have the weekend pretty much to our selves. Then we will be able to relax and have a nice time together...

Well I guess I'll see you all in hell some day (you are going there, don't you know?)

/E

Building a life together

2008-09-01T09:53:00.003+01:00

Never would I have thought that I would meet the most wonderfull girl in the world...
Even more fantastic is that we are living to gether and we are building our home together...

I can't start explaining how wonderfull it feels, to be able to wake up beside the woman I love, to kiss her goodbye in the morning, knowing that she will be there in the evening when I come home.

We are really starting to get everything in place, we are redcorating the appartment, buying new furniture and stuff. We are building our new home together! I can't really put to words all the feelings inside of me...

Needless to say, I met the woman of my dreams... I want to spend every second with her, every moment with her is a blessing...

Now I have shared this piece of information with the world. Maybe someone bothers to read it, maybe not. Anyways... it feels good

/E

Cool stuff I laid my hands on the last 12 months - part deux

2008-08-27T13:40:00.005+01:00

As pointed out by my dear friend Cat in a Box yesterday I am missing one important bullet on my list of cool stuff. So here is the coolest thing I laid my hands on (I put more then my hands on her, but that is another story)

My wonderful girlfriend

Thank's for pointing that out, can't see why I left that one out :-)

Cool stuff I laid my hands on the last 12 months

2008-08-25T15:16:00.001+01:00

Xbox 360
iPod Touch, 32 Gb
iPhone 3G, 8 Gb
42" Full-HD LCD TV
Nintendo Wii
15.4" MacBook Pro

Almost two months down the line

2008-08-25T08:41:00.004+01:00

So, here I am!
Still walking on small pink clouds with my head up in the thin air, feeling all warm and fuzzy inside.

When love hits you, it hits you hard, without mercy... It hits you where it really feels... In the chest, the heart, in your stomach...

I could never imagine that I would feel like this for anyone, not in a million years, but hey! I've been wrong before! And in times like these I love to be wrong.

I still have a housegest :-) Or should I say life partner? I really hope this relationship will last... This girl has really stolen my heart! She instantly found the key to unlock my heart and took it... I love her with all of my mind and body, the best part is that she loves me as well... Who could have thought that. Somebody is loving me... How did that heppen?

For a long long time I have told my self that I would probably live and die by my self, alone and unloved, that I did not want to have a relation ship at all... From time to time I have been really messed up on the inside... But now I feel like life has returned to me again, I can breathe and feel once more. It is the best time of my life right now...

Who would have thought, not me, that's for sure.

It is amazing when you meet a person and you instantly feel connected, you instantly feel like you could spend the rest of your life with that other person. If you haven't had that feeling it can be hard to relate I guess. I never had that feeling before, until now. This beautiful, sexy, funny, smart, wonderful, kind and loving girl... Instantly I felt the connection, now I can't imagine my life without her... Yes, yes, I know. The relationship is young, we haven't known eachother for that long time, I know what you are thinking... But hey! I don't give a crap! I'm going to go with the flow and trust my feelings! As long as you stay true to your self, to your feelings and to the ones you love I guess nothing can go wrong!

Okay, enough ranting for today. I will try to post here more regular... But hey, noone reads it anyway... I guess... But it's good therapy :-)

Thanks for listening
See you all in hell

/E

Love is in the air

2008-07-14T15:10:00.004+01:00

It is funny how life sometimes takes unexpected turns, for the better.
What starts out as a brief Internet conversation escalates over a couple of months and turns into a real life meeting then to a festival weekend spent in a tent then to me having a house guest.

I met this totally beautiful, amazing, charming, lovely girl that really rocked my world!

It feels great, I am sitting here at work, just longing to go home and there this girl is waiting for me. It is very unreal... It feels like a dream somehow... I am really happy!

I don't want to make this out to be something it isn't but I have great expectations.
The catch is that she have her life in Gothenburg and I have my life in Stockholm, so it's kind of a long distance relationship.

/E

Swedish terrorist

2008-06-23T11:34:00.001+01:00

Disclaimer: As a swedish citizen, the swedish government has deemed me to be a potential terrorist. Therefor all my electronic communication is now monitored and read by The Government. Please be advised that this blog is being monitored and kept in databases by the swedish military intelligence (I know - it’s a real oxymoron) to see if I communicate with real terrorists or if real terrorists IN sweden reads this blog.

says it all

2008-05-24T15:38:00.002+01:00

Back in the real world

2008-05-21T12:52:00.003+01:00

Ok, I could write an essay on how my trip to Germany was, how nice the weather were and how much tan I got right now, how good the festival was etc... But I doubt that anyone would be particular interested in that...

Instead I will just tell you about how much it really suck to be back in the real world. Being on vacation really screws with your head. All the sudden you believe that life is all about drinking beer and having good fun, then you get dumped back in reality with a huge backlog of work and a cold from hell... How inspiring is that? I hate it...

I really got to get som new inspiration.
I need to get a life.

"All work and no fun makes Jack a dull boy"

Right now I am seriously thinking about packing a bag, take off to some remote, secluded location and contemplate my life. It seems that something has gone wrong when all energy and inspiration has gone out the window and plunged to a painfull death at street level...

I mean, am I really where I want to be in life?
My values and ambitions?
Do I have the right focus in life?
How can I change my environment?
How can I provide my self with the settings and surroundings I need in order for my self to take advantage of my strength and energy?
Bla, bla, bla, bla...

I guess I have to identify what I need to work on, what I need to change inorder to achive harmony...

Well fuck it anyways...
Maybe just buying 10 feet of rope is cheaper and more efficient?

/E

Germany: day 5

2008-05-07T12:09:00.002+01:00

So finally I am in Germany.
I had a great weekend visitng friends in Munich, left there on monday and I'm currently at the Hauptbahnhof in Berlin waiting for my train to leave for Leipzig in a couple of hours.

It has been a really great trip so far and I really hope that it will continue to be. It has been really warm and sunny, about 25C- 35C, so I am no complaining (other than my sunburn :P).

I have managed to see most of the tourist places in Berlin, the Brandenburgen tor, check point charlie, Alexander platz, Potsdamer platz (where I went yesterday evening to see The Blueman Group!) and so on. I found out that the city tours by bus is really excelent here in Berlin and a great thing to go for because you get to all the places that you should see, and you can hop on and off where ever the bus stops so that you can explore a specific part in your own pace. I also found out that taking a stroll along the same route as the bus is another plesant way to go, and it lets you see a little bit more than just rushing by in a bus. But the bus is excelent as a starting point.

This evening I will arrive in Leipzig and tomorrow I will have some time to explore that city as well, before the WGT-festival kicks off on friday. I don't really know what to expect, but I am totally sure that I will have a good time there as well.

/E

Truth #003

2008-04-29T09:17:00.002+01:00

Everytime a woman smiles at you it is a indication that she is ready for steaming-hot sex, this is especially true if you happen to be intoxicated.

/E

Truth #002

2008-04-28T08:20:00.001+01:00

Alcohol does not only make you more attractive, it makes you smarter as well!!

/E

Truth #001

2008-04-25T16:54:00.000+01:00

Sunglasses makes your appearance cool, no mater what!

/E

Bear with me - I'm just ranting

2008-04-22T07:16:00.003+01:00

It's funny how it goes.
Everytime I try and undertake some kind of task it soon grinds to a halt and there is no energy or will left to push my self into completing a project.

Just one year ago, I always had a project going. Always something new, did nothing but pushed the limit, worked around the clock almost. Now, I don't have any energy at all. It is strange... Maybe I have allready spent enough energy, maybe I'm getting older, maybe it's just a phase. I don't know, but it sometimes scares me.

I was hoping to have at least a Beta version of www.ebmhead.com out before the summer, but know it seems impossible to achive. I got around to do some thinking, writing and started to code before the whole shit hit the fan. I don't want to give it, but I cant fix it either, always pushing stuff infront of me, things that I could have done today I always leave for tomorrow.

/E

Finally!

2008-04-14T18:55:00.003+01:00

So, now everything is set! I got my long sought ticket to the WGT-festival delivered by snail-mail last week, I have bought and paid for the flight to Germany and I have all the hotels booked in Berlin and Leipzig. The only thing to take care of is the ICE-train ticket I need to get from Münich to Berlin, once I've got it I'm 100% set for a two week stay in Germany.

Needless to say that I'm longing?

I wish I could go tomorrow, al this planning is making me really sick... I wanna go now!

There is a really nice line-up for the festival as well, a lot of groups that I am dying to see, like "Das Ich" amongst other... Have a look-see

Have a nice evening...

/E

Things to do...

2008-04-07T12:57:00.003+01:00

Ok, this might be a bit boring to read about, but I just have to compose a list of things that I want/should do the next two years.

1. Take my drivers licence
2. Learn to speak German
3. Learn to play the guitar

I see this is at least a two year plan...
Hm...

Let's see! I'm goin to drivers school this evening, hopefully I can complete the theoretical test before summer, then it's just the fun part left. Driving :-D

/E

Tickets, passport... watch out

2008-04-07T07:13:00.004+01:00

So it is done, I finally bought the tickets for my Germany trip! Wohoo

I really have great anticipation for this trip and looking forward to the WGT festival as well! It's going to be kick-ass!

There are ALOT of bands confirmed already. I was really excited when I saw the latest newsletter, the Swedish band S.P.O.C.K is playing! They are cool, really cool. They make synthpop with Startreck themes! I have been wanting to se them performe live for years, finally I might get the chance.

See you in.... Germany!

/E

Germany here I come...

2008-03-31T08:06:00.002+01:00

At last I can really plan my trip to Germany. I am going there to attend the Wave Gotik Treffen in Leipzig in May and while I'm in Germany I will make a little tour, visiting some friends in Münich and visit Berlin for a couple of days, oh the joy!

Enjoy!

2008-03-28T10:39:00.000+01:00

Weekend - at last!

2008-03-28T10:32:00.003+01:00

So, another week has come to pass... It's been a long week allthough it was a short week... :-S Figure that one out :-p

Great, it's soon weekend, only a few hours left of the working week...
Tomorrow night there is a clubnight at Tech Noir here in Stockholm! Three Swedish EBM band are presenting some new material tonight! The bands are Run Level Zero, Dupont and System. I would love to go there and party out a bit, but I am quite tired... Let's see, It would be kick-ass!

/E

Hard work

2008-03-26T13:15:00.004+01:00

Hello fans!
I know your'e out there some where...
I hope so at least...

What a load of bull! This is just me ranting, no one wants to read it anyways :-D

It was an awesome weekend, four days free from any acctual work. I went on a kick-ass concert on friday and drank way to much booze on saturday, sunday and monday were just laid back sofa-laying watching movies days. Really nice. And I actually got some stuff done as well. Started to build the new framework for my site www.ebmhead.com, so hopefully it will be ready soon (read: withing six years), and got started on some new songs for my music project. I am happy. I must try and keep it up.

Now I'm back at work, and there's A LOT TO DO! I shit you not. Until lunch today I finished up and closed over 30 helpdesk tickets... Wer'e backlogged as hell, but now I'm starting to se the light in the tunnel... Luckely there is not too many of the tricky tickets left, so I'm going to spend the afternoon in a telco, writing blogposts, updating my profile on som stupid community site, looking into my website statistics and maybe writing some code for it and most importantly, I will do "cherry picking" in the helpdesk que :-D

So, if you are out there some where... please, practice safe sex and... yeah, that's right...
Go to hell!

/E

4 days off!

2008-03-21T08:22:00.005+01:00

So it's easter weekend, the only positive thing with it is that I don't have to go to work, even though I still got out of bed at the same time I would if I had to go to work. Why? Well, figure that if I got a day off I might as well try and make the best of it. I really have to much to do, just not enough time or inspiration.

Trying to work on the release of www.ebmhead.com.. Hopefully I can produce something today, and alongside that I have my little music project going... I think some people are starting to expect that I actually could produce some music... So I better get my thumbs out of my ass and something about it!

Tonight there is a kick-ass concert here in Stockholm, the Mexican aggrotech band Hocico is playing, and after them there is an act called Northborne, which also seems to be really good. To hear some music by them, go to the page http://www.tinitus.com.

So if you all just go to hell so I could get going with my projects here...
Fuck off
/E

Personality?

2008-02-29T13:41:00.000+01:00

Personality Disorder Test Results

Paranoid	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Schizoid	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	74%
Schizotypal	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	54%
Antisocial	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%
Borderline	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	42%
Narcissistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	38%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Dependent	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Obsessive-Compulsive	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	38%

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Inspiration where art thou?

2008-02-25T15:01:00.003+01:00

Spring time has finally come to Sweden!

A lovely time of year when the sun starts appearing early in the morning and dissapearing a little later bewlow the horizon. The birds have started to sing like they always do and a happy, warm and fuzzy feeling starts spreading in my body. It's great.

Now is the time to really start picking up where I left of last autumn, that is picking up all of my hobbies. Maybe I can find a little more energy and inspiration to get going again.

I have realized that I really need to put a blowtorch to my own ass to get anything done, I am lazy and instead of doing the things I really should (the things I would like to do!) I lay around on the sofa, watching stupid movies, tv-series or playing video games... Really stupid.

I hope that inspiration will come to me again and I can continue my ventures into the world of music and photography.

/E

http://www.apple.com/macbookpro/

2008-02-21T15:24:00.004+01:00

Ok, since I am in the mood of bloging I thought I would take a religious moment. You know there is a battle going on, no? It is fought every day, right before your eyes. A battle between good and evil...

Well... not really, but it seems like many of the people that advocate Mac computers are quite fanatic about it, not to say the least about the PC/Microsoft camp. There is always flamewars and FUD appearing when people starts discussing which is best: Mac/Mac OS X vs. PC/Microsoft Windows

Since about six months I am a proud owner of a MacBook Pro, a lean mean, apple machine! A sexy piece of hardware enclosed in a shiny metal casing...

Yeah, I am an über-geek, and yes, I love my Mac!
I just read a really good blogarticle listing (the top) 50 reasons why you should switch to Mac. If you haven't yet experienced working on a Mac with Mac OS X you should! It rocked my world at least.

I would also like to advertise one of the best freewares that is out there, Just Looking 3.1, you can grab a torrent of it from The Pirate Bay servers (oh gosh, TPB doesen't only contain ILLEGAL stuff! How about that!)

So I expect you to go an buy a MacBook Pro now!
/E

Funny... Indeed funny

2008-02-21T14:52:00.001+01:00

Now I am really mad...

2008-02-21T14:17:00.004+01:00

Ok, I just spent like one hour or more struggeling to understand a problem with a users calendar in Lotus Notes...

If you are familiar with the Lotus Notes mail file and it's features you know there is a "tab" in the caledar labeled "Meetings" which opens a view that displays all the users calendar entries. This is fine, it's a good feature. To get a little bit more technical, in the design of the database the view is named "($Meetings)" (the parenthesis signifies that it is an hidden view, you who are familiar with designing applications for Domino understand...), which is perfectly fine, then it also has an alias which is "Meetings". Ok, doesn't sound bad, does it?

Wait a minute! What if the user creates a folder with the name "Meetings"?

Here is the fun part, IBM Lotus development apparently did not build any checks for conflicts between the default view/folder names against the ones created by the user... And it turns out that the folders created by the user takes priority over the "default" ones.

So given these facts, what happens when the user (who created a folder called "Meetings") clicks the "Meetings" tab in the calendar? Well, the folder opens...

In fact this breaks the functionality if the calendar in several aspects, especially if you are synchronizing a PDA or a Mobile with Lotus Notes...

How to fix this issue?
Rename the folder? Nope, can't do... it reverts back to it's old name...
If this would happen to you I dearly hope you have a Domino Designer client and sufficient rights because you have to:
1. Create a new folder
2. Move the contents from the folder "Meetings" to the new folder (see above)
3. Open the mail file in Domino Designer
4. DELTE the f-ing folder from the design
5. FINALLY, it works as expected again

I swear, I got at least three grey hairs from this episode...

Help, I'm in hell...
/E

Wave Gotic Treffen 2008!

2008-02-09T17:28:00.000+01:00

Finally they released the ticket for WGT 2008, I bought one now! So I'm all set to go, I got a hotel reservations, a ticket for the festival. Only need to make sure that I can get to Germany, which seems like a lesser problem :-P

So, maybe I'll meet some nice people there!

And I also bought the ticket for the Arvikafestivalen, a Swedish festival held in the small town of Arvika, hence the name. So far it's a hell of a lineup! Looking forward to that one too...

Have a nice weekend you bastards!

/E

The Cure tonight?

2008-02-09T17:22:00.000+01:00

So here I am, sitting in front of my computer waiting...

Tonight I'm going to a The Cure concert! The only bad thing is that I caught a cold... But hey! Maybe I will be Cure:d to night :-D

Well, it's going to be a hell of a time! Good music, live music! and good friends. And my favorite club here in Stockholm (Tech-Noir) is having a "The Cure" afterparty until 03:00 AM, so my guess is that despite my cold, I will be totally ass-drunk coming home at around four o'clock in the morning :-p

Wish me luck, and... yes... go to hell!

/E

I really feel sorry for people...

2008-02-05T10:39:00.000+01:00

...who don't live.

Maybe it's just me, but I cannot understand what is going on in the minds of people who think that life is all about:

*Have 2,5 (the Swedish average) fucktard-children

*Marry young (in church... hipocarcy)

*Go to the same work all your life until you get pension or die in a work-related accident.

*Five years after marrying young and having their 2,5 fucktard-children, wake up and wondering what the hell is going on.

*Having to stay with the old wrench that you once married, "for the kid's sake"

*Buying the station wagon, only because it's practical

*Getting a dog, a cuddly one, and then have their children abuse it by pulling it's tail, flapping it's ear and then have it put to sleap because it chewed one of the kid's arm of (I wonder why)...

*Spending all their time and money on the house

*Vacation? No, it's to expensive to take the whole family to Spain. Let's go to the next town and camp out instead...

I really hope that I newer get so stupid so that I descide on marrying and having children... Seems so pathetic life... Or maybe it's just me that is pathetic, I don't know. But that's what I feel...

The battle is on... kinda

2008-01-31T22:02:00.000+01:00

I know this topic is spreading like a wildfire through out the entire blogsphere and the entire world. But I just want to give my two cents in the debate. Maybe you know, maybe you don't but today four men in Sweden were prosecuted for violations of the copyright laws. The men behind the popular Swedish site and torrent tracker The Pirate Bay (TPB).

The major media companies are suiting up and bringing their best (worst?) lawyers into the game, trying desperately to get a conviction of these guys. I tell the good luck. It is stupidity of them to think that it is possible for them to get a conviction in this case, if they should against all odds succeed the large of the society is in grave danger. They are using foul play, lobbying, political pressure, vague evidence, ad so on, to try to get to a conviction. In earlier Swedish court cases where ordinary people have stand trial because they (supposedly) have made copyright protected material available on the Internet without the consent of the copyright owner the evidence has comprised such weak and easy to forge evidence such as screen shots, planting of evidence etc.

The Swedish anti-piracy organization "Antipiratbyrån (APB)", the pet dog of several large media companies and partners with the MPA, are time and time again trying their best to become some sort of a police organization a'la DDR. They have been collection IP addresses of Internet users, trying to get more authority to do busts against private persons (aka "Pirates" or "File sharers") etc, really scary guys with Stasi potential.

One scandal that happened in the latest court case in Sweden was that the Swedish police (lacking knowledge) gave represents of the opposing part access to the accused persons computer and hardware so they could do the analysis and collect the "evidence". Something that made me outraged. So one one side a guy accused of distributing X number of files, on the other, a huge anti-piracy lobbying organization with money and lawyers...

I can tell you about other strange things as well... One of the first "pirate" busts that were made in Sweden was when the APB managed to get the police to raid a Swedish Internet Service Provider (Banhof). The police together with personnel from other Swedish agencies marched in an early morning an seized alot of equipment. I can not remember all the details about this bust, but later on several new facts were brought in to the light, mainly by a hacker group that called them selves "Arga Unga Hackers AUH" (translated to English is Angry Young Hackers).

The hacker group managed to get hold of email conversations between personnel at the APB and a third party, what was exposed was that this third party were somehow paid by the APB to "plant" server in the ISP Banhof's space. I don't think that this were ever truly investigated or if anybody got prosecuted for it. You can read bits and pieces of the email conversations that AUH exposed on this site, some in English and some in Swedish.

The second major debacle was when the Police raided another ISP called PRQ, this was the ISP that at first hosted the servers for the Swedish torrent tracker TPB. One would think that they would have any clues to what to do during the raid, but no. They went in, "guns blazing" and took ALL servers they could get their hands on, this included innocent companies that had their servers co-located in PRQ's data center. These companies was left without their servers for weeks, and when they filed a lawsuit against the government for this, it got rejected... of course..

Eventually the servers were released. All but the ones that belonged to TPB. Although they managed to get hardware in a data center in Holland, and got everything up and running using their tape backups withing hours literally... impressive. Even more impressive were the facts that should come into the light shortly after the bust. The US government (alongside the major American organizations for media) had written a polite but rather harsh letter to the Swedish government, implying stuff like boycotts etc. if they couldn't find a way to get rid of the menace, the evil, The Pirate Bay... Basically that's what the letter said. As usual it all blew away in the wind, no one was held responsible for anything.

This event is what led up to the events taking place today where four men are under arrest and pending trial for various copyright infringement accusations.

Need I say more?

This rant turned out to become something else that I intended it to be, very long and probably hard to read, sorry. My initial intent was to talk abut how the music industry and the movie industry only care about money and profit. They are unable to see/admit that their form of media distribution and pricing models are horridly outdated. Selling a piece of plastic (which you don't even own the right to do what you please with) for 200 SEK (that is €20,90 EUR or $30,88 US!!) is not going to cut it anymore.

Wake up and smell the coffee, you dinosaurs!

In the mean time when all these events takes place, several new organizations emerge from the wast sub culture of Internet users and freedom fighters. The most notable in Sweden is the "Pirat partiet (PP)" (The Pirate Party). A political party that went to election with questions concerning reformation of the copyright laws, getting rid of the patent system, and ensure that citizens' rights to privacy are respected.

Enough ranting, good night, sleep tight and hope that all your torrents has finished downloading until tomorrow!
/E

2008 - The year of fun and music

2008-01-16T14:44:00.000+01:00

Here is a short table of the concerts and festivals that I will visit during the first half of 2008, hopefully the other half will be filled with music as well..

9th February - The Cure - Stockholm - Sweden
27th April - Einstürzende Neubauten - Stockholm - Sweden
9th - 12th May - Wave Gotik Treffen - Leipzig - Germany
3rd - 5th July - Arvikafestivalen - Arvika - Sweden

In between - lots of club nights in Stockholm with great music and great people!

/E

Things I bought last year (which I probably shouldn't have)

2008-01-04T13:32:00.000+01:00

Xbox 360
Nintendo Wii
Panasonic DMC-Z50 digital camera
Apple MacBook Pro
Computer peripherals such as USB harddrives, mice, keyboards, wireless routers
Computer components such graphics cards, mother boards, RAM memory, CPU's, WLAN adapters, Power supply units (I think I upgraded my PC like four times last year)
A shitload of video games

So I will do my best not to spend too much money on stupid stuff this year... (but a PS3 and a 47 inch LCD TV would be nice)

What would the world be without users?

2008-01-04T12:35:00.000+01:00

~~Well... It is stupid to complaint about users since they are the ones that keeps people like me employed, but hey!~~

I was about to write a ranting about stupid users, but I refrain from doing this.

Go to hell

/E

What a totally brilliant man!

2008-01-03T23:16:00.001+01:00

Nincompoop - it's actually a real word...

2008-01-02T16:50:00.000+01:00

I did not think that "nincompoop" actually was a real English word until today. For some reason I had to lookit up, trustworthy old Google could dig it up for me.

http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/Nincompoop

2 blogposts in one day, impressive... Guess it's a slow day at work, eh?

/E

2008 - Hope for a glorious new year

2008-01-02T15:22:00.000+01:00

So, now it's officially a new year... again. And what's that to celebrate after all. It's not like we're getting any younger... I guess we all just have to make the best of it, to try and follow our dreams and live our lives one day at a time. Not to say that one shouldn't have goals set in life, it's just that I think that most people strive for their goals so much that they miss what's going on in their surroundings. As a wise man once said

Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans.
- John Lennon

Don't focus on what could be or what will be all the time, take a pause from planning, try to smell the flowers once in a while, yes, it is a cliché but hey! Try it some time, you might be surprised, I know I was when I for once took the time to do it! Now I am trying all the time, to slow down, get a feel for what's around me, what is really happening now and what does really matter in life. If you ponder on this for a time you might be surprised to see that what really matters to you as a person, and in your life, not always is what you always though it to be.

I just know that 2007 was an awesome year for me, I learnt so much about life, about people, about myself... About how I want to live my life.

So what will happen this year for me? Hm... I don't have any grand master plan on how to live my life, but I do know what I want to do, and I'll try to find ways to make it happen. First of all...
Travel, I want to travel through Europe, see some of the nice capitals of Europe and hopefully I will manage to get to a couple of them. One trip is already planned, I will travel around in Germany for two weeks during May (got(h) a festival to visit!), that will be awesome!

What else?

Oh yes... Weight... I need to loose a couple of Kg's this year...
Which leads us into the subject of...

Home cooking vs. fast food, something I will try to change, I need to really get into the habit of cooking my own meals AND to start eating breakfast, hopefully it could contribute to saving some money as well :-P. More home cooked dinners instead of greasy fast food with fries and coke...

...and...

Working out? Hey! I just bought a Nintendo Wii *kickass* Wii Sports really give me soar arms...

Learn fluent Java and OOP, that's a real elephant to eat, but as always, elephants are best eaten one piece at a time, beware to get a mouthful!

Stop using tobacco? Don't bet on it... But it would be nice, but I think I'm hooked forever...

As usual I haven't made any resolutions what so ever, so don't hold it against me if you see me gulping down a super sized meal at MickeyD's while puffing on a cigarette anytime soon :-D

Okay... It's been a while...

2007-07-17T13:11:00.000+01:00

Probably no body in the entire world cares about this, but anyway...

It's been at least two months since my last posting here, that means two month into my new career as a consultant. The summer is quite slow and I'm currently hankering on by being a temp as the helpdesk/admin/support-guy. Not the most thrilling gig one could have but at least it brings in the money ;-) And also, having this gig over the summer is quite okay, because there is'nt much happening since most of the users are on their annual summer vacation :-D

Soon there will be two really nice concerts here in Stockholm, one is unfortunatly mid week, it's on the 7:th of August. It's a Japanese JRock/Visual Kei band who are on their Europe tour, me and my sister have allready got tickets and I believe it will quite an show, the bands name is Dir En Grey. The second concert is my alltime favourite Synth/EBM genre, the legendary band Nitzer Ebb is doing their last (hopefully only for this year) Sweden performance the 22:nd of September. It will be realy cool, as always!

More info can be found here
http://www.direngrey.co.jp/english/e-live.html#europe
http://www.tinitus.com/

I guess that will be all for now...

See you in hell
/E

Time to admit

2007-05-16T09:04:00.000+01:00

M'okay, I have to admit... I'll never be a blogger...

It is clear that I actually haven't got so much to write about, and when I do it's badly written anyway. And I don't have the time to write essays every day about everything and nothing like some bloggers do. Even though I will keep posting here I've realized that I will not be a member of the "blogsphere".

It's a nice day to day, the sun is shining, there's a clear blue sky and just a mild breeze. On top of that it's the last day before the public holiday, so I will have four days in a row! Feels nice. I wonder what I should do actually, I should clean out my apartment. Although I know that the odds of that happening is slime to none... At least with this weather... I have planned for one and a half month to do the cleaning up now, but I always seem to find an excuse not to do it... Crap...

I've really been in to "Sisters of Mercy" the last couple of days. Really nice to go out in the morning, breath the morning air, light up a cigarette, all accompanied with "Corrision" or "Mother Russia"... I even dug up my really cool sunglasses today and wore them onmy way to work. It's kind of fun wearing sunglasses. Makes you feel a bit invisible for some reason. And you can tell that people sometimes think you are strange when you wear them indoor or on the subway... he he...

Well, got to work... Have a lot of documentation to write now when I'm leaving this company...

/E

First impression

2007-05-14T09:29:00.000+01:00

Last Friday I was invited to a conference with my new job, which I haven't even started yet... But it was nice, really nice. We went to a place called Nynäshavsbad, which is located a mere hour by train, south of Stockholm. It is a spa hotel located in the archipelago. A really luxurious, five star hotel with nice environment and nice food.

For the first time I met all my to-be colleagues, a really nice gang. I was worried the evening before I went, but when I finally was there and met them all I felt just like coming home! So I have a really warm, fuzzy feeling inside. I'm looking forward to start working there!

So now I really have to brush up my Java skills, to get up to speed on that. It's really important, so this morning I've ordered a bunch of books from the O'riley "Head first..." series. Much less expensive than I thought, that's why I ordered five books in total, I know it's stupid because my new employer would happily paid for them, but I really need to start reading it ASAP

Well... A new week is in front of me... Oh happy days!

/E

Yeah, funny shit

2007-05-09T11:25:00.000+01:00

Then why not me to?

2007-05-08T22:41:00.000+01:00

I will try to come up with, and publish, some useful Lotus Script or Java Script examples.... Just not right now, it's the middle of the night and I should be sleeping (instead I'm upp reading my feeds...)...

/E

Everybody is bloggin'

2007-05-08T22:25:00.000+01:00

My feed reeder is literary flowing over with new blog posts from all over the world. It seems like anybody who is anything is blogging. This seems very real in the Notes/Domino community at least.

A lot of people that I know, people who's lectures I have attended or people I've heard in some podcast, people that actually are the biggest profiles in the community are doing it. I am really Impressed about these people, that they can keep up their blogging...

I feel that I would like to contribute more to the Notes/Domino/IBM community as well. There are a lot of projects popping up all over the globe, Open source projects which targets the Domino platform. This is a really cool concept, earlier notes was very much "enterprise only" but in recent times a real community has started to form around all of it. Developers are going out in blogs, helping each other out with different problems, starting global open source projects... It's so amazing. I really wish that I could manage to get enough energy so that I could contribute to Notes/Domino community to...

/E

Random

2007-05-08T13:07:00.000+01:00

I'm feeling quite random right now. Don't really know what I'm doing, just surfing round on different sites having a laugh... Lot's of funny sites around. If I can get to it I will try to compile a bookmark repository with amusing and amazing sites...

www.pandora.com - an American Internet radio station that actually played what you wanted it to has now been blocked for visitors from without the states or the UK. It was a really terrific service and I miss it a lot. You just told it to play, for instance, Front 242. Then it played Front 242 and other bands that had been labeled with the same characteristics as the band of you choice. Of course it was not always exact, but the you could remove those songs that didn't belong to your "Internet radio station" and add other bands or songs. In that way it was kind of self learning. To bad the US government saw the opportunity to enforce some new laws (imposed by the http://www.mafiaa.org/?).

Hm... time for some more work....

/E

I want it!

2007-05-07T12:06:00.000+01:00

http://www.dpreview.com/news/0607/06071905panasonicfz50.asp

A new week has begun

2007-05-07T11:57:00.000+01:00

So, another week is upon us again. The weekends pass in a blistering speed. You don't even know what happens before it is over. I didn't do anything special at all this weekend, as usual. I should focus more on the stuff I have to do, like try to tidy up, toss away a load of garbage still lying around since the renovation of my bathroom... Well, being a lazy SOB does not help ;-)

These thing that I "have to do" really gets to me. On one hand I'm to lazy, on the other it drives me crazy and stresses me out. Knowing it's like it is degrades my mental health somewhat. But will anybody care in 100 years? I don't think so, but anyways I can't help letting it get to me.

Last week I bought ticket for a concert being held here in Stockholm in August. The Japanese J-Rock band "Dir en grey" is doing their tour and are visiting Sweden. Since I'm not really into J-Rock it is mostly a present to my sister who worship the band (not that I'm not looking forward to seeing them...). She went nuts when I told her about the ticket. Feels good making someone happy.

/E

YAW - Yet Another Week

2007-05-04T09:16:00.000+01:00

I'm feeling open source today, hence the title of this blog entry...

The laws of the big-brother USA keeps imposing on the freedom of Internet, soon enough I would guess that they will be searching out bloggers that doesn't confirm to their beliefs and start sending them of to Guantanamo just because they expressed their opinion. My fear is that the freedom and free speech is going out the window anytime soon... I'm not sure that there is anything to do, not against the a corrupt state like the USA anyway.

USA - the new China? Well, it might sound harsh, but think about it. Not to many differences between the Communist republic of China and the USA... It's all about appearances I guess. US always fins a way to look pretty to the world...

A new week has passed away beneath my feet. It's like that trick when someone pulls away the table cloth really fast and the porcelain, glasses and cutlery is still in the same place as it was. This summer is going to be like that, I won't even now what hit me before it's all over and winter is over us again. It's always like that nowadays, not like when I was a kid and had the whole summer off and were able to really enjoy it. Now I wont be getting any vacation.... Well, I guess that the meaning of life is to work....

Live to work or work to live?

I say, live and let live!

Peace

/E

Valborg - a fine Swedish tradition

2007-04-30T18:28:00.001+01:00

Valborg comes in many different flavours, I preffer it straight up ;-)

Hangover, lovely weather, bad headache

2007-04-30T09:26:00.000+01:00

Monday morning, feeling like shit. Spent two days in a drunken state, it really takes it's toll on the body I guess. However, no mater how awful I feel right now, it was a really nice weekend. Today it's the last of April, here in Sweden it means celebrating "Valborgsmässoafton", basically it means, getting drunk and watching the bonfires... It is a old hedonistic celebration dating back to the age of witch hunting and stuff. The bonfires served a couple of purposes, one is to scare the witches and the wild animals (so that the cows and other livestock could be let out), the other is to burn old garbage...

No mater how old the celebration is, all new generations want to make their impression on the style of celebration I guess. So the "Valborg" has become a celebration where you should be as drunk as possible. For a lot of teenagers, this is the holiday when they are drunk the first time, a lot of accidents and violence due to the amount of booze... Kind of sad actually...

I guess I'm going to party tonight to. I'm not sure that I want to do it, but I have a invitation for a party. Maybe I'll take it up. Though I should really stay at home, sleeping and cleaning the apartment...

/E

Friday - a wonderfull day

2007-04-27T08:21:00.000+01:00

To day the mercury is going to be off the charts (for this year at least). Predicted to be the hottest day so far this year, so I'm rally looking forward to having a small BBQ and relaxing with some light wine or beer. Having a friend over this evening and hopefully we can come up with something fun and relaxing.

Lately I have been feeling quite off... Being tired, falling a sleep early in the evenings, against my will just, cant help it. Feeling bloated and constipated, a little stressed out I guess... I would really need a vacation for, lets say, two months or something... But now, switching jobs and all of that, as usual in the summer, I will have to forfeit my summer plans for "the greater good"...

Went to the cinemas yesterday, say the new British movie "Hot Fuzz". A really cool movie, I can say that the first half of it was quite boring, but then the real action came. A funny movie with a lot of gory "over-violence". I can recommend it.

See you next week

/E

Oldtown - Stockholm

2007-04-26T09:14:00.000+01:00

I have to publish a test image just to see that it is working. The pic is of a early evening view of the Oldtown in Stockholm

/E

Spring time

2007-04-26T08:13:00.000+01:00

This is a wonderful time in Sweden, especially in Stockholm.

I don't know why, but it seems like Stockholm has the largest amount of beautiful young women (%), and it is regarded as the cit with the highest ratio of singles. This becomes very obvious this time of year when all the big, thick winter jackets has to make way for short skirts, revealing tops and other "light-weight" clothing. There is a lot of nice things to watch here, and being a single my self makes it very pleasant to go out in the city... Not that I'm a dirty old bastard, it's just that I love woman!

I will try to get my "mob-blogging" working so that I can send snapshots from my mobile to my blog, then maybe I can show you all what I'm talking about. Give you a peek at the "Venice of the North", Stockholm.

I'm really longing for the next concert at Tinnitus (www.tinnitus.com), it's a club that arranges concerts at Stockholm University, last time Combichrist was playing there. Other notable bands are Frontline Assebly, Front 242, VNV Nation amongst other... Music is life, and going there is fun :-D

/E

Ok, here we go...

2007-04-25T12:54:00.000+01:00

First blog...
I wonder how it is going to be. Trying to post here as often as possible to keep everything up to date....

I'll begin with introducing myself. My name is not Ebmhead, that's for sure, but I'll keep my real identity a secret...

I'm a 28 years old male, living in the great capital city of Sweden, Stockholm. I am currently in the process of switching jobs. Working in the IT business, mainly with IBM products and now I'm moving from a global corporation to a small consultancy agency here in Stockholm. Really nice!

In my spare time I try to indulge my self with new technologies, mainly concerning Web development. I guess you could say I'm quite a geek.

Music is also one of my passions in life, both listening and composing. I don't consider my self a musician, but my aim is to release at least one full length CD one day. I listen to almost any kind of music, but if I have a saying then it is electronic music like Synth/EBM/Electro/Aggrotech. I also like some "Goth" music.
A subset of the list of bands i like:
Front 242*
Fiendflug*
Combichrist*
Covenant*
Depeche Mode
Sisters of Mercy
Kraftwerk
(* = bands I actually seen live)

I guess this blog will mainly be about technology, music, feelings, parties and photos....

Well that is it for now I guess.

Peace!
/E